Disappointment

Disappointment never tasted quite as bitter as it does now. Just when you thought: hey this is a girl I can see myself with. Said girl turns out to already have a gf overseas.

The sad part is, I was really into her. My heart was crushed when she mentioned a gf today. She looked so happy when talking about the gf, my heart just kept shattering. I was, under the impression that we could have been more. I'd never want to come between a couple.

It was fun talking to her. And she's really cool. I thought, thought that maybe, maybe it's my turn to be happy. So mistaken. So very mistaken. Such a bitter pill to swallow.

How to be optimistic after this blow.i just can't. I just want to lie in bed, under the covers and cry a little. Don't have any expectations. Saying is easy, doing is a different story. Wallowing in self pity, perhaps I'm not destined to be with anyone. Perhaps I'm destined to forever be alone.

Maybe I jinxed myself when I thought that there may be a chance she's not single. Well. Guess it's too late to pull back, ain't it. She's someone who's really nice to talk to, good looking to boot too. She's someone, who'll make a great gf. Unfortunately, that someone isn't me.

Yes I'm aware that I'm just crushing. But crushing is also an involved feeling. Just feel so, upset. So blue.